I've been quiet.
very quiet....
There are just some things you can't share with the world because there is so much going on and so much history that it's not worth it...
besides - there are times when the world shouldn't know becuase nothing good would come of it.
There have been times when I've wanted to use this space to throw someone under the bus..
drive the bus over them..
back the bus up...
drive over them again...
but what good would that do? nothing..
There are times when I want to whine and complain..
but without knowing the reasons - what good would it do but make you want to leave me a comment saying "SHUT UP! Stop whining and do something!!!" so I stayed silent....
There have been times when I opened up the page to write...
but nothing came...
I am here now - with nothing.
I have nothing left to give. I have nothing I can share...
I have nothing left.
My rock bottom (as I know it right now) was Friday. I was able - THANK YOU JESUS - to go hide out on Friday night and Saturday morning because my hiding spot is open. I was able to go and just spend some time alone. Saturday I woke up and wasn't right but still can't tell you what it was. I actually described it today as if every cell in my body was wanting to do it's own thing and go it's own way and not one was wanting to work together... and like that, I had to do Super Saturday.
This is where I'm was and where I'm at. Under a complete and utter attack from the evil one. Not only spiritually but mentally, emotionally and physically.
However.....
On Thursday morning - I leave on an airplane to Vero Beach, Florida.
Remember this sight????
This is what I will be looking at on Thursday evening.. Friday morning - I will be in one of those white chairs... or just beyond the fence on the sand. I will have a book in hand, ipod in my bag and sunglasses on to watch the girls swim. Jess and Taylor are going too so it will be a good week.
So there you have it. I've been quiet. Life has been hard and just when you think it's as hard as it can get - it gets harder.
My hiding spot is open, I'm leaving on a jet-plane for a warm, sunny place, I will have my two oldest nieces with me. How can life be bad??
